winterbreak

i think we both know

this is the love we won't get right

 

still if u said that wanted

i know we'll always have one more try

u pull that face like here we go again

 

 

something special 2 me

First playlist of 2018! I was listening to most of these songs back in October time and couldn’t get enough. Although back then, I was listening to them on a YouTube playlist because Apple Music doesn’t have “happy” by Natasha Bedingfield which oh my god, literally the HAPPIEST song EVER. This playlist isn’t a “let’s let LIT man”, no, that’s not this playlist. This playlist is just suppose to make you happy, I listen to this walking to uni (even when it’s raining, I smile the WHOLE way there), in the shower (haven’t slipped yet), cleaning my room (this process ends up taking way longer because it just ends up being a one man dance party) and most importantly it’s my morning playlist. When I’m getting ready this playlist is perfect, because it’s got a mix of chill songs, upbeat songs, ahhhh I just love these songs so please go and listen to them. They’re the epitome of a basic white girl playlist but idgaf (side note - IDGAF by Dua Lipa LOVE, love the song, love her).

I called it something special 2 me because it really is (CHEEESYYYYY), if I’m in a bad mood I play any song from this playlist and I get over it straight away. If my life was a movie, this would be the soundtrack. 

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This Just Happened

I was just sat here going through this website and I love going through it and seeing where I was, what I was thinking and then I thought of someone. I looked at my phone and they had just messaged me. Little coincidences like that make me so happy. 

rip

R-I-P to the old you
I miss the old you
It's like you're dead to me now
R-I-P to the old you
I fucking miss you
I would have never let you down like you did to me
Now you're dead to me
R-I-P

-olivia o'brien

 

If I Could

Do you ever sit and wonder if you could go back to a moment in time and do something over? If you haven’t, well this is awkward. If you have, join the club, I do it all the time. I know ‘you shouldn’t think about the what ifs’ blah blah blah but you know I’m only human (after all) and to be honest sometimes it’s quite ‘fun’ thinking about or imagining how things could have gone. One thing I used to think about, not so much anymore considering I couldn’t tell you the last time I fought with someone, but I used to always think about what I should have said in the middle of a fight that would have been a better way to go about it. I always seem to think about a couple of relationships with people that maybe didn’t need to end, or shouldn’t have ended the way they did. I could name two off the top of my head but knowing that there’s a chance that they could read this makes me think it’s maybe not the best idea, so maybe deep down I know that there’s a reason those people aren’t in my life. Just a thought.

Serendipity

the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way

The idea of serendipity is something I always seem to think about. I am constantly connecting the dots of things in my life, so the thought of serendipity is always on my mind. To me, it's very much like the saying 'everything happens for a reason', I always sit back and think about a situation, and look back at the things that have occurred that have built up to this point. I've said 'always' three times already and it's to emphasise how much of a role this plays in my life. I love to think things are happening because they are building up to something bigger.

Playlist 2

When I came home in April, I knew I would be driving a lot. And most of the time when I’m in the car I listen to music. And I remember sitting on the plane waiting for take off, I made this playlist thinking it would be a good idea to put a group of songs together that I could listen to when I was driving by myself and wanted something a bit more laid back. So here is my L8 Nights Playlist.

 

I know it’s not your fault that you love her

Why can’t we fcking get along? 

I write a text then delete it, “ily”

I don’t wanna wake up to no one, well no one but you

I’m trying to fix it, I’m scared it works

At times I wonder why I fool with you

I’m only acting like this bc I like you

Initially, I didn't want to fall for you

The closer we get, the less that I think I know you

I hate to say it but you're just my type

I might call you tonight, if I do, pick up

In N' Out

If you ever watched The Clique, you will know these lists. If you don't, watch The Clique. I remember doing these sometimes when I was younger and thought it would be a good thing to incorporate into phephebelle.com.

IN

friends

polaroids

panadols

OUT

cocktails

people from the past

job.

 

logic

sometimes u tell someone to never call u again

then the phone rings and u hope it's them

it's the most twisted logic of all time

-john mayer

playlist 1

(I wrote this a couple of weeks ago and didn’t know what I wanted to do with it, so here it is)

 

I’ve always been someone who likes to feel emotions, feel feelings but only to the point where I can control them. I don’t like to completely lose my shit in the middle of the street and burst into tears, that’t not what I’m talking about. For me, I like to relate to song lyrics and the feelings the artist is trying to make you feel. I guess that’s one thing that attracts me to a song and something I find so amazing about song writing; how someone you’ve never met can write a song you can perfectly relate to. If you follow me on twitter or instagram, you’ll have noticed I post all these lyrics and sometimes I relate, sometimes I don’t but those are the ones that have made me feel something. If you google my captions and put all the songs together you’ll pretty much have a playlist of all the songs I listen to. But I group my playlist in terms of moments as opposed to vibes. So all the songs I’m listening to at the moment are in one playlist, whether they’re upbeat or sad songs they are all grouped together in a playlist that I listen to until I get sick of it. Then I move onto a new playlist. That way, when I go back and listen to a playlist, I can remember that moment in my life. I’m someone that likes to associate music with time, which is why I organise my playlists this way. 

B-TTER is the playlist I made for this particular moment, and I’m not going to lie, I got the name idea from Jack Baran but I thought it fit with this group of songs because it could be bitter or better. As in I’m bitter because of the way it happened, better because I’m done with it. 

Here are the lyrics I’ve loved and the playlist itself.

 

 

I moved on for the better, you moved onto whomever

you got me good like a bad drug

it ain’t right but it’s right now

do you still feel it in your chest the way you did at sixteen?

Maybe I was blind, I was young, I didn’t have a clue

want it when we can’t have it, when we got it we don’t seem to want it

what if i had been a fool and thought I was in love with you